Just having a 3rd grader moment giggling my ass off in the grocery store remembering the story my BFF told me about her experience flying 1st class. The flight attendant came by everyone's seat loudly offering "HOT NUTS!" If I had been sitting next to her we would have been kicked off the plane. This one's for you, Mary!
Got a phone call on the way home from work yesterday. My application has been approved. I told her it was because they haven't found the bodies yet. Tonight was my Gavvie Doodle night. I kissed him so much we both fell into a sugar coma. I bought him his own comforter so we can make him a pallet on the floor instead of using a playpen. When I get to my new apartment, I want to make him a bed under a table like a tent. I see a trip to Ikea in my near future. Here he is like an angel.
But today, I feel better. I feel happier. If I can find an apartment to move into within my budget before January 31st, I will be ecstatic. I walked out of one place yesterday disgusted with the way they were acting towards me. I don't know if it was because it was NYE and they wanted to get out of there or maybe it was because I looked like I had just crawled out from under a newspaper on the street because I didn't feel good, or maybe my attitude when I started out on my adventure to find an apartment got sideswiped. Maybe a combination. It set the tone for the rest of the day, unfortunately.
Change is coming. It must. I cannot go another year like the previous one. I like to think my friend Reb helps me stay grounded, and she doesn't even know it. I've never even met her, but I've known her through the internet since 2005 when we first started blogging on Yahoo! 360. Reb is so real. She's so observant and down to earth. I love her very much, and her photography is inspiring. I have photos in my memory card that have not been processed or shared with anyone since Thanksgiving, and I feel like it has been because of the busy-ness of Christmas and work. Typical end-of-year madness for everyone, I'm sure. I just feel the need to lead a more meaningful life outside of work, but at least with work I know what to do. I feel so lost when I'm not there, and no one is around here.
I just divorced myself from Google Buzz, more internet divorces are imminent. I must mainstream everything, and everything syncs to my HTC EVO Sprint phone. It has become the hub of my social and workplace life. I practically sleep with my phone, but it will not accept Lotus Notes email yet. When I move, I am going to try my best to not need an internet connection. Times are hard, and since I have my smartphone with unlimited everything there should be no reason to pay the $50 for a connection. In that extra time, I hope to avoid electronics and become more craft friendly in my new place. I will probably get another dog, and absolutely positively will be making it comfy for the love of my life - my grandson Gavin - to come be with this Nanner Boo. I bought him an entire barnyard of toys to play with for Christmas that still sits unopened in the boxes. I was hoping to have it all set up for him the morning we had Christmas together, but there were more people there besides me with different ideas about how that morning should go, so I left it all intact in the box and brought it back home with me. I am thankful my DIL sends photos of him almost daily to give me that boost I need to make it through the hectic and/or lonely days.
Tonight I have plans to go have some fun. I have been looking forward to this for ...2 months? Maybe 2 months! I love my friends Ruben, Sara, and Tony. They have invited me over for dinner this evening and they make me laugh so much. I am truly grateful to have plans today. I must start getting things done so I can leave and go have some out and out FUN. It's been a long time coming.
Prayer list:
And if you don't believe in prayer or God, then just think nice thoughts for them. It's the same thing, really.
